Hater Nation

Haters Nation... yeah a place where many seem to love to reside in... been thinking bout writing a blog on this subject and hesitated for a while because I thought why even waste my time or even put my energy into something like this... until I came across a tweet Deadlee (the rapper) posted earlier about a pic that was posted of him wearing an ED Hardy shirt, the comments I read underneath that were the harshest I had ever seen... FOR REALS!... and trust me Im not writing this blog only based on that cuz I know my boi is a grown ass man and he can handle his own but I was just so discussted in how harsh the shit was, even for me... for a person who's delt with "haters" for years even I had not come across so much and so harsh all at one time like that... so beyond all this hatin on Deadlee let me just holla atcha right quick on my personal look on this... for reals ya... I just cants stays quiet no mo lol...

You know, ever since I stepped onto the Myspace world back in 2004 and maybe even before that mothaphukas have always felt the "need" to go out of their way to say something negative about me or try to bring me down. I remember before Myspace I got a few little haters here and there nothing serious... but then when I stepped onto Myspace and became pretty popular with the boys things got worse for me... I started getting ALL kinds of haters... and back then I'll be honest with you that shit did hurt, that shit did get to me and I did care of what people would say about me (back then). You know I was what, 24 or 25 years old... yeah I have to admit I was still a young'en and didnt really know how to handle it. I remember shit would really get to me to where I always felt the need to have to reply back to some negative comment about me on Myspace especially, always had to make sure I got my point across or if someone thought something wrong of me I always felt the need to correct them or reply back with some bullshit like for example, I remember when I first posted my first ass pic, u know showing ass and stuff oh man I got the worst shit about that... but then again, yea gotta admit I didnt have the body back then that I do now, and I aint sayin Daddy gots a budunkadunk but gots more then what I use to (right Deadlee) lol... anyways, well yeah I began to get lots of shit "oh Daddys a big ass bottom" or even "Daddys a whore" and all stupid shit, so of course being the top that I am, yeah that always pissed me off and always felt the need to say something back or correct them to make sure they knew I was "not" a bottom...

Well my popularity grew on Myspace as many of you know, my first page on Myspace grew to about 10,000 back in 2006 and shit got to its worst, my name was in everybodies mouth "Daddys a hoe" "Daddys a bitch and so mean" "Daddys not real" and my favorite "Daddy has HIV" oh man I heard it all... and shit got so bad that everytime, and I mean E-V-E-R-YTIME I would meet someone they had aaaaaalready heard about me or had friends that had "warned" them about me or told them some nasty rumor about me, I began to see that no matter what I did someone was going to be out there trying to bring my name down to the gutter, got so bad when I first heard that ugly rumor that I was HIV positive, for reals ya... when I heard that one I began to panic like oh shit what if people really do think I have HIV... so I ended up deleting my page all together and used the excuse that I had found a relationship... well I did but it was more because of the rumor... crazy huh... but yeah thats how bad it got and I think I even stayed away from the scene for a while, not only that but by this time I had just begun to earn the name "Daddy" and it sure came with its territory that little bitches started wanting to fight me at the clubs FOR NO FUCKEN REASON!!! just because I have always been one to post pic after pic after pic... ya know me Im the photo freak... shit I love taking pix... and see what many people didnt and dont understand about that is that Im a photographer so naturally its going to be my hobby to take pix... and shit loving photography and being in front of the camera is only obvious that Im going to want to take pic after pic... I'll admit I have toned it down a bit cuz back then it was some photoshoot every fucken weekend... for reals... and my whole page was ALL me, now at least I post pix of me and friends lol... so yeah it got bad, the whole Daddy hating scene became overwhelming that I deleted my page and stopped going to clubs, it was koo because I was in a relationship so I had more time to spend with him, well that only lasted 3 months lol...

After that relationship I had a good friend of mine (Maria) who at the time was so into Myspce as I was before I deleted it that she kept pushing me to start another page, I hesitated for a while until finally I gave into her and the whole excitement of Myspace cuz I mean back in 2007 Myspace was the shit, way before Twitter and way before the hype of Facebook, its where anybody that was kool was seen lol... I remember telling myself that if I started another page that I was going to tone it down and just put up not too revealing pix... but little did I know that the revealing pix is what would make me the really popular mothaphuker I am today... so of course I tried to do that, I started my new page and yea for the beginning part of it I posted decent fully clothed pix you know the boring stuff lol... but at this time I began to work out and hit the gym so naturally my body changed and people noticed and of course the itch to take my clothes off and reveal my growing fit body to the Myspace world was back in effect lol... and of course as the clothes came off the hating began, by this time I was fed up and done with it, I began to reply back to every message that came across negative or in some way hating. I would lash out and quickly found that it brought nothing but angry people who began to threaten me... it didnt bother me because of course many of you know I'm a hot head so I was ready for the DRAMA lol... the hating continued and around the beginning of 2008 I went through a life changing event that made me realize that letting people take power over you only controls the outcome of your personal happiness and with that my WHOLE mentality and perception on haters completely changed. I began to see that the negative of what people would produce and try to apply to myself and others was really all a mental thing and of course I applied my psychological background to all of it and started making real sense of it all.

Many of you know that I have always had in interest in psychology and I think its what helped me along with my life changing event to understand not only the reason why people hate but how to approach and manage the negativity of others onto oneself. I learned to not let anything or anyone affect me in any way... verbal words can be harsh if you let them, and if negative verbal words are applied to something true about you then its your choice to accept it in a way that will either affect your mentality or not, its pretty simple if you come to think about it. To me it became so funny that all of these years I had been killing myself over stupid remarks, comments and thoughts of others about me and came to a realization and conclusion of my greatest saying and I quote "What part of what you think about me do you think is really going to change the way I live my life, really" and to this day has been my saying to people who feel the need to apply their negative perceptions or thoughts about me to me. Because through all that I have been through, all that I have achieved, all the struggles I have been through have made me the strong individual that I am today... I consider myself a very intellectual Man who understands the reason for the existence of the negative thoughts and perceptions of others about other people in what we have come to know as "hating". Haters and hating will exist til all man kind no longer exists but its okay, because I stand as a strong man that I am today to where I can sit there and just let shit roll off my back with out phasing me one bit why because I understand the reason why people feel the need to be negative but further then that I am 110% secure with who I am and what Im about... people will talk for as long as you exist, you can either let verbal shit affect you OR, you can live your life with the judgment from the only one that matters which is YOU! To this day 4 years and over 22,000 friends later, I continue to have a club for those that I like to consider part of my "fan club" and it consists of people who are dying to see me fall or fail but little do they know they never will because in a world like mine there is no such thing as failing there's only getting better baby. Now I post ass pix, frontal shots, the most intimate stories of my life which a lot of you know on my blogs on here and myspace and I am who I am and very happy with it, now if someone posts a negative comment on a photo of mine I go right ahead and approve it and think nothing more of it. Nothing in this world will ever make me change the way I live my life but my own decision based on my own free will.

So in closing, Im going to leave this simple little note for all ya who deal with this same issue... if you are one who people always seem to have something negative to say about then you know what baby, let them because I've always looked at it like this, its always at the end of the day that when you put yourself to sleep and you are at peace with God and yourself of who you are then baby that is all that you need because its you who is the one out there looking and finding your true identified happiness not anybody elses. The thoughts and perceptions of anybody else is just that... never live in the shadows of those who feel the need to always bring you down or put you down... shine like noone but you can and know your life is your life.

Oh and to the haters... keep hating because without ya, I'd be nothing...

One Hater Nation Under God mothaphukahs

Live Well... Daddy